Evolution Of A Man

lately, i’ve been having this thing about working. not so much that i mind work (hard or easy), but i just don’t wanna do it! though i’ve been concentrating very hard on my novel, meeting new people, and working out, i’m not inspired by any of the work that i have to do these days- whether it’s personal or career related. i think it’s just been part of the funk i was in earlier this month. maybe i was fooling myself- attempting to change my emotions. regardless, i’ve accomplished very little since the beginning of the year- mostly due to the fact that i just didn’t want to work.

then, i was reminded of something denzel washington once said:

“you gotta do what you have to do in order to do what you want to do!”

this quote speaks volumes to me because it totally calls me out, and points to why i’m getting nothing done. there’s plenty of stuff that i have to do- that i know i have to do- to get to what i want for my life and career. i know that in order to get the body i want, i have to work out. i know that to complete my book, i have to start writing. i know that to make friends i have to get out of my apartment and talk to people. all of this, i know i have to do, but i’ve just been avoiding them all because doing them requires work, and work isn’t fun.

i wrote this quote down and posted it on the wall in my living room. after thinking and thinking about it, i realized that it was time to face the music! all of these things have to get done sooner or later for me to achieve my goals- i might as well stop whining and avoiding what has to get done, and get to work. i thought about changing the association i had with work. structure the things that i have to do in a way that is fun for me. then it won’t seem like work.

so far, i’ve been able to get a lot of writing done by working in coffee shops as opposed to at home. i love to people watch, and what better place to do it than in a coffee shop. i’ve also gotten online (match.com, adam4adam, and gay.com) and have introduced myself to several people in an effort to make new friends. i’ve gotten several things done already, and what’s funny is that upon completing those tasks, new and more interesting ones were starting to open up. it just really goes to show that the universe really does work with you to make stuff happen- you just have to meet it halfway.