on divine intervention…
will on April 18th, 2008
so everyone knows that i’ve got plans for 2008. i’ve said it before, and i’ll say it again- 2008 is my breakout and breakthrough year! it’s the year that i’ve been waiting for. i’ve had this feeling that my life is going to take off sometime in the beginning of the year. i’ve been working on a bunch of stuff outside of my job at google, and have been really looking forward to creating and building a business, getting out and living my dreams. if all of this growth and work i’ve been doing has shown me anything, it’s that i’m in the wrong career. i don’t belong behind a desk. i have aspirations to be a media mogul and want to build a company and legacy of my own as opposed to help build someone else’s empire.
things have so far been okay, but nowhere near as productive as i would like. i just feel like i never have the time to do any of the stuff that i really want to do. my complaint has been that since i spend so much time on the plantation, after work i don’t have much time or energy at all tow work on personal assignments. for weeks [read: way longer than that], i’ve been contemplating leaving my place of employment. after 4 and a half years, i’ve come to the point where, frankly, i’ve gotten from them all that i can, and they’ve gotten from me all that they can. i was just waiting for the things i have going on personally to line up so that i could make my move.
last night while praying, i asked god for a jump-start. a little push! i just felt so stuck- so caged in because i didn’t know what to do. do you remember that scene in the “harry potter” movie, where harry had to fly around and catch one of like a bazillion keys in order to get to the next level? that’s what my life has been like for the past 4 months! i have been going through each day with ideas floating all around me, and have not been able to concentrate hard and long enough on one to actually latch onto it. i prayed hard for some guidance, and today, i got it- although not in the form that i expected.
this morning, i woke up and went into the office for yet another long day at work; but, unbeknownst to me, today was going to move a lot faster than i originally anticipated. in short, today google gave me my walking papers. indeed, this does seem a bit jarring at first, but trust me- i’m fine! so fine in fact, that upon hearing the news, all i had to say was, “okay.” i immediately sighed, “i’m free… time to get to work!” that was seriously the first thing that popped into my head. i sped the meeting with my boss and hr along- giving no real indication about how i actually felt about their decision- with my 1 or 2-word responses; and as soon as i was given my papers and instructions, i left the office- oddly enough, just as happy and as excited as when i was first hired four and a half years ago.
it dawned on me as i said my goodbyes to everyone and took care of some last business, that the timing couldn’t have been more perfect. just last night i was praying for a little push, and here it was. there were no tears on my part (although there were some who cried when hearing that i was not coming back- that made me feel special), and really, there are no hard feelings because (1) i’ve got work to do, and (2) now, i get to live my own life!
i bounced from work for the last time and took a nice, enjoyable walk around the city- basking in the beautiful spring day. i was ecstatic because i’d often look out of the window during the day and dream and wonder about the lives of the people who were out during the day as opposed to being stuck in an office. i was finally one of them!
feeling good, i wanted to look good as well, so i headed up to washington heights to get my weekly haircut. by the time i got out, the sun was shining even brighter, and my day got even better. aunt vicki vale called, inviting me out to catch up over a serious 2-for-1 happy hour at gym bar in chelsea. now, let me give it up to ms. vale yet again… if there is anyone who can show a brotha and help him see his worth, it’s ms. vale! i become fully aware of how amazing (no conceit), talented and worthy i am every time i’m around him. you can’t help but to… motivation and confidence just oozes out of him. anyway, we filled each other in on our weeks over cocktails. i told him about my getting fired, to which he was incredibly happy to hear (funny… no one said, “i’m sorry” to me today. just, “congratulations!”). as we talked, idea after idea floated around us, and all of a sudden, the idea of the century just fell right into my hand. no way i’m divulging it here, but it’s big! and it’s about to catapult me right into my career breakthrough for 2008!
i can’t wait to get to work. i’ve got a fire lit under my ass so huge i could burn this whole mutha down! and i’ve got divine intervention, ms. vicki vale, and google (who knew) to thank.
all i have to say is, thanx guys… you’ve set me free; and it’s very much appreciated! to everyone else: keep your eyes open, ‘cuz here i come!
i don’t know where i’m going, and i don’t know what’s next, but i’m playing this legacy game full out- and that’s what counts. i am now in control of my own life, and it is one of the best feelings i’ve ever had! i can’t wait to see what i build and create in the future; and do hope that you continue to come along for the ride. i have learned many lessons thus far, and cannot wait to continue on this remarkable journey that is the evolution of a man!
