this weekend is the gay pride celebration here in new york. usually, i’m like the first of my friends in line to organize our little group’s participation in the festivities. this year, i’m just not into it. it’s almost as if i’d just rather not be gay this year… i’m just kind of over it.
every year you see the same thing- the drag queens, the hot shirtless men, the flamboyant youngsters- and this year i just feel extremely detached. i’m proud to be gay, and understand the importance of the parade (especially this year now that gay marriage is legal in california), but i’d just rather stay at home and work than be in the city watching the parade and joining in on the party.
i have a few projects that are really starting to take form, and the excitement is almost 10 times as intense as attending the parade would be. i just want to keep working to make some of my dreams come true. that’s pride, right?
so i’m staying in this year. to those of you heading out to party this weekend, have a great time, and happy pride!!
a couple of days ago, i bought one of those PUR water filters that go on your kitchen faucet. when i got home to set it up, i found that my current faucet, being old as fuck, is not compatible with my new filtering device.
yesterday, being in something of an overton wakefield jones mood, i skipped down to the home depot and bout a really nice chrome faucet for my kitchen sink. the box read, “easy to install,” which of course made me extremely happy given the fact that i had no idea what i was doing. unfortunately, though, my existing faucet really could give a rats ass about how much work it would take for me to remove it.
as such, i spent the better part of the evening, trying to remove probably 20 years of grease and grime from the bolts in order for me to take the faucet off. the bolts were very hard to reach and were stuck on so tight that i had to bend and move some parts of the pipe in order to reach it. bending the pipes, however proved to be quite detrimental. one of the pipes ended up bursting, leaving me soaked in nasty, smelly pipe water. ewww! needless to say, the faucet never got changed.
and what’s worse is that today, after washing and lathering up like a mug, i still smell like dirty old pipe water. not cute. not cute at all!
as we all know, i’m an incredibly huge movie fan! have been as long as i can remember. in college, i spent my spare evenings in the basement- curled up in one of my handmade blankets (yes i crochet!), watching movies and eating popcorn; and one evening, i came across the movie, “living out loud,” starring holly hunter and queen latifah, but with a “special” appearance by:
eddie cibrian!
in this movie, eddie played a really hot masseuse who visits holly hunter’s character after she’d had a drunken (and somewhat embarassing) night out. this entire scene, was all about eddie! this boy’s body is so amazing- particular his mouthwatering bubble of an ass!
i know those of you who saw this movie seriously considered (if only for a moment) callin’ a “masseuse” from the paper after feeling everything that eddie was giving in that scene. and for those of you who haven’t seen this bit of orgazmic goodness, here:
if you’re like me, you’ve probably rewound the scene (or parts of it) like 20 times before going on to do anything else [read: read the rest of this blog post].
today happens to be eddie’s 35th birthday! what better day to take the opportunity to get on our knees (in thankful prayer, bitches!), and thank the good lawd for the yummy deliciousness that is mr. eddie cibrian!
the universe is all about putting me in a great mood today! after an incredible night of partying last night at splashbar nyc, i surprisingly woke up early this morning and went out for a bit to run a few errands- dancing in the streets the entire time.
when i got back home and settled into my tv watching, writing and net surfing, i came across an episode of one of my favorite shows, “living single.” the particular episode airing guest starred the one and only:
eartha kitt!
i can’t tell you how much i love this woman! every time i see her, i think of 2 things: batman and boomerang. i’m watching the episode now, and every time she comes on screen, i get closer and closer to by boomerang dvd- preparing for round two of “kitt entertainment.” and if i had the batman series she appeared on back in the day, i would be heading for that one, too!
i shared this with unknown dj who happened to be online, and he shared with me this beautiful pearl of a video capturing eartha in 1962 singing “i want to be evil.” it’s my new favorite video! no, seriously… i’ve seen it like 10 times in the last half hour or so that i’ve known about it!
check it out:
brilliant! scary, but brilliant! i feel the same way sometimes- just wanna be evil!
so, where ever you are miss eartha kitt, this post is for you!
it’s been 2 months since the divine intervention, and this week, for the first time, i’ve finally reached “bored” status.
the incredible and soon to be released projects that i’ve been working very hard on since april are, at the moment, out of my hands- being edited, proofed, promoted, etc., and i’m now left sitting in my apartment with nothing to do. i HATE having nothing to do! one can only surf the net for so long before they totally lose their mind. and i’m very quickly reaching that point. i’ve been racking my brain for something to do- a new project, venture or experience- for the last week or so, but have come up short every time. and this weird and rainy weather we’re having in new york these days is not helping.
i know that nothing lasts forever, and so this stint of boredom will undoubtedly end very soon (especially when my projects come back), but for now i’m hurting. and big time! i’m one of those people with way too much energy for one person, and not having anything or anywhere to place that energy is quite painful.
for the last week or so, i’ve been reading “a new earth,” by eckhart tolle. i don’t know how many of you have picked up the book, but if you haven’t, I highly suggest you do so quickly! this book is one amazing piece of literature if you are looking to figure out why your life isn’t working, and/or looking to get the best out of each day, no… each moment of your life.
although i’m still in the first third of the book, there have been several things so far that have rung out- practically stopping me in my tracks- and forced me to take a look at how i think, speak, act and live.
one thing in particular that stands out for me is the discussion of the ego. i’ve never thought of myself as having a big ego, but it was quite revealing for me to find out what exactly the ego is comprised of, and furthermore, what i can do to keep it at bay so to speak. i learned that “in most cases, when you say ‘i,’ it is the ego speaking, not you.”
i started to think about how much i use the words, “i,” “me,” “my,” and “mine” in regular conversation, and noticed that i talk about myself A LOT! now, we all know that i like attention, but i didn’t really realize how much i was sort of imposing myself and what i’m up to/ doing onto other people. that’s not cute; nor does it really make me happy. the book asserts that we often do this as a way of not only building our ego, but also to show (to ourselves and perhaps others) how much “better” we are than someone else.
we all do this. period. the question is how much? and for what reason? again, the reason is simple… build the ego. the how much, in my case as i’ve begun to pay more attention to it, is a lot. i talk about myself and what i’m up to quite a bit in an effort to build my ego and “status” in society. but what i’ve discovered is that the ego is not who i am! it is a form on unconscious thinking and really has nothing to do with who i am as a being on this earth. so why feed it? perhaps, cuz it’s easy to do, and the ego is always looking for something to grasp onto.
now that i know this, i can move on with the understanding that there’s no need continuously expound on what i’m doing, and what i’m accomplishing, because in the end, it’s not me. it’s not who i am. it’s just a single part of me. the more i’m driven by my ego and building it up, the less i’m actually connected to the world, and really, my purpose in it.
wow… this is fun!
everyone, please pick up eckhart tolle’s, “a new earth.” it will seriously change your life for the better!
i recently came across a picture of a man whom i’ve always admired for his swagger. there’s just something about this man- his style, the way he talks, and his look that makes my man-parts quite elated. who is it?
t.i.
this was t.i. droppin’ all kinds of sexxxy on the mtv movie awards red carpet last week. i saw this picture, and just had to praise tha lawd for his infinite creativity and skill. this man is PHYNE!! don’t know many (if any) of his songs (i’m a serious r&b head); but i could definitely take a listen sometime… in the studio… late night… just the two of us. you know.
i’m just sayin.
i do hope he keeps popping up in paparazzi zones across the country during his free time before getting locked up. for starters, because he’s just so damn nice to look at; but also, because i absolutely love his fashion style. i don’t know who his stylist is, but i really need to talk that person because t.i. and i are like the same size, and i know i could rock that look!
until that happens, though, i’ll just let all that sexy radiate out of the pictures and warm that special little place in my hot pocket made just for him…
will on June 28th, 2008
