discipline!
will on November 26th, 2008
it’s been so long since i’ve posted anything here that my wordpress account needed a reminder as to who i am… i apologize!
after having a pretty nasty stomach virus thing- that pretty much wiped me out for the better part of a week- i’m back in action as your local media entrepreneur. i must admit though, despite having recovered sometime over the weekend (it’s now wednesday), i still couldn’t get myself to do anything productive. i have an assload of work to do- including finding a job and preparing a plan and marketing materials for my book; but i really haven’t gotten anything done. aside from an interview here and there, i’ve remained almost completely stagnant when it comes to book and career promotion.
i doubt myself too much. i believe in what it is that i’m trying to accomplish, and even further, believe in what i have created thus far; but i still find myself asking, “who wants to listen to me? what do i have to offer?” because of this, the mountain of work on my desk never gets smaller, and the ideas swirling around in my head never get implemented, or even drafted.
i went to see dr. eye candy yesterday, and as usual, he helped me sort through my problem. the frustrations and fears i have about my life and myself right now are totally normal. sure, i may be pushing them to the extreme (as i tend to do everything in my life), but the fact that they exist at all only prove that i’m human. my problem isn’t so much doubting myself as it is my lack of discipline and drive. most people choose to work for someone else because they lack the discipline, determination and motivation it takes to build a business of their own. not everyone can be an entrepreneur. taking an idea and building a company from scratch is an incredibly daunting task that very few people (in comparison to the worlds population) are able or willing to do. so they abandon their dreams, and settle for a life of punching in to mr. boss man’s time clock. i’ve already made the decision to be more than somebody’s employee… i just have to now apply myself!
if i am to be the success and inspiration that i dream to be, then at some point i am going to have to suck it all up- the fear, frustration, and doubt- and get to work. i am the only one who can make this happen- make my dreams come true. i have to force myself to live a work life that is conducive to my ascension and success in media. it’s incredibly hard work, but there is no other option for greatness. only 120% discipline and drive will do. nothing less!
