on turning 30 and making changes…
will on May 15th, 2009
as i’ve been screaming from the rooftops for the past week, yesterday was my 30th birthday! the reason why i’m so excited is because i am so incredibly ready to get the next season of my life started. there are many big changes either currently taking place or are about to get kicked off in my life right now and, in my opinion, they couldn’t be happening at a more appropriate time.
i’ve already spoken of the first of these major changes: smokestack cutting me out of his life [read: setting me free]. i’ve learned some hard lessons from my friendship with him, and i’m excited to move into my future a little more knowledgeable about people and about myself. i’m tougher now, and i know i’ll need to be in the future.
the second change has been jumping around my head for a few weeks now, but really came to light last night at my dave & busters birthday party. i talked with some friends about what’s coming up next in my life, and i realized that the time has come for me to humble myself and move into a new apartment. i’m IN LOVE with my current residence– which makes this decision all the more difficult to follow through on– but it’s time to face the music. my only stable source of income at the moment is unemployment, and it does not cover the high price of renting bungalow 425. for the last 7 years since moving to new york i have been fortunate enough to live in abundance- living in such great diggs and often living beyond my means. it’s time for me to come into reality, make some sacrifices, budget, and live more responsibly in order to fully focus on my career grind and where i’m going. so, i’m selling some of my belongings and moving– hopefully in the next two weeks– into a new, more affordable (but still nice) apartment. ideally i’d like to cut my rent in half, and i know that God will provide something amazing for me that’s perfect for what i need to do and how i need to grow.
i know that making this move will be difficult, but i feel surprisingly at ease with what has to be done. all of these things are happening right now for a reason. life is preparing me for something great and i must be willing to meet the universe half way. i’m ready for change and i welcome this opportunity to humble myself and use the beginning of this new era of my life to build myself back up.
many look at turning 30 as the beginning of getting old, but i see it as the start to gaining infinite wisdom and reaching optimal self-actualization. i’m a bit scurred, but i really can’t wait to see how i grow from all this change; and see what i create in the future. 
