Back to work…and finding value
will on October 23rd, 2009
I’m back in the workforce, y’all…and I’m kickin’ some butt!
A few weeks ago I got a call from a temp agency asking if I was interested in interviewing for a “long-term” operations position. I didn’t even have to blink before I said “yes.” I needed a job…bad. I was given the company and position vitals and I faced my interview the next day beaming with pride, determination, and confidence. I had an informative and engaging 20 minute conversation with one of the managers, and I left the office believing the job to be mine. I was offered the position less than 24 hours after my interview. God is good!
I started working a few days later and quickly got back into my corporate mojo. My job is mostly data entry, but there’s also a lot of analysis and troubleshooting involved. I’m really enjoying the work that I get to do, and it turns out I’m actually good at it. Now three weeks into my 6-month temp assignment, I’m surprising myself, and my co-workers, at almost every turn with the efficiency and quality of my work. I mean, I knew, on some level, that I was good, but I’d never really paid attention to seeing myself in action- I’ve always been content to show up and do what was asked of me…just to collect a check. These days, as the day progresses, I find myself fully present in my work- managing the systems with ease and accurately completing my tasks faster than they can be assigned to me. I’m on a roll and I’m having a blast!
I’m beginning to see that I have value. This may seem perplexing to some- why wouldn’t I know my value- but it hasn’t been so easy for me to believe and understand my worth in the past. I didn’t see it for myself. I think what makes this experience so significant is that I’m taking the time to live in the moment of the task at hand and focus on what I love about the perhaps mundane assignments I receive, and not on the fact that it’s just a job and not my ideal career. I’m discovering that I really love excel, typing, organization and learning new computer programs & systems. Focusing on those things serves as the foundation for enjoying the day’s work, and is what inevitably allows me to succeed. And paying attention to this process, as opposed to just going through the movements and not learning anything from it, is how I’m coming to know and now appreciate my worth. I can actually see myself growing. There’s beginning to be no need for others to try and convince me of my value…I’m seeing it for myself.
Now more than ever I’m understanding the principle of the trusting the process. By taking advantage of every moment of this opportunity and acknowledging, truthfully and for myself, the quality that lies within me, I’m slowly breaking away from being the uncertainty and insecurity that has clouded me these last few years. I’m very much so looking forward to the next few months. Not only for the paydays as I mentioned in my last video blog, but also for more insight into what I’m good at, what drives me to succeed, what makes me happy, and what will propel me forward. I’m growing exponentially and am being prepared for something tremendous and astonishing. I can feel it; and I can’t wait!
