Evolution Of A Man

*gracefully exits bar with flair, stumbles to nearest pizza joint, buys two slices and logs into WordPress for iPhone*

A friend of mine had a birthday party this evening; at which I surprisingly (and tipsily) mingled and networked like I never have before. Maybe it was the alcohol, or maybe it was the current grind and ascension mode I find myself in these days, but I was really ON tonight!

I met a handful of people, with whom I engaged in a variety of both comical and profound conversations, that I really hope to see and talk to again! Some of the conversations I had tonight were truly amazing (don’t ask me to repeat them in this, my drunken stupor), and, really, right on time in terms of where my life sits at the moment.

The only problem was…well, it was two-fold. For one, I keep forgetting to get the contact information of the people I meet. I met, and engaged in awesome dialogue, with several people tonight. Some asked to exchange contact information, because they wanted to continue our conversation; but I only gave them my personal business card- forgetting to get their information for myself. I really need to get better at the whole exchange. Most of the time I just dug up and handed out my card quickly because I was so wrapped into what we were discussing. Which leads me to point number two: I think I may talk or talk about myself too much. I’m not entirely sure of this- it may just be insecurity, my mind or the alcohol talking- but, sometimes, I get the sense that I’m speaking too much in order to make a point.

Please believe me when I say that this is not intentional. I assure you! I’ll be the first to admit that my insecurities play a big part in hindering the “success” of my social interaction- which, at times, lead me to manipulate conversation; but more often than not, my attempts at opening a dialogue with someone comes from a heartfelt and pure source. At any social event, the question, “so, what do you do?” inevitably arises, at which point most of us tend to pretend as if what we do is what we actually want to be doing,  if you catch my drift. You can, many times, see clearly, the disdain people have for their jobs. It is the avoidance of discussing or even mentioning what they really want to do that sends me into, I guess, what is Will-mode- which, for some equates to arrogance and/or being preachy.

When encountering less-than excited [read: defeated] answers to such a question, most of the time, my response comes from a place of trying to propel my conversation companion to the next level of his or her life. Or, after perusing their thoughts and using personal example, I look to assist them in identifying what it is they really want, as opposed to encouraging complacency with what it is they’ve settled for. On some minute level, yes, I do want to make an impression on them and want them to remember me. But on the whole, I really just want to help them grow as individuals. That’s my thing! Regardless of all the mundane and trivial tasks of our day-to-day lives, we all have something- living deep within us- that represents what we aspire to do and to be. I know I spend a lot of time trying to find that thing and figure it out. I can’t help it if I wish to help others find success in that area of their lives as well.

If we are all here, and aspire to live the lives that our creator purposed us for, why do we discount, push aside or ignore those people here on earth who just want to see us grow and evolve?

I’m not trying to talk your ear off, lecture, or bore you. I’m just trying to help…and motivate you. Really.