will on June 14th, 2009
the storms of life have really been gettting to me recently, and i’m very glad to say that, finally, i can see blue skies once again!
in the beginning of last week, i was really going thru it. i could barely get myself out of bed, and when i did, i moped around like a sad little puppy dog– locked in a state of depression and grief over what I felt was an uninspired life. on top of that, i was frustrated with trying to get my cable and internet service hooked up. cablevision came to my apartment 3 days in a row during the week, and in the end, still couldn’t get my cable installed. it was not shaping up to be a good week.
on wednesday i got a call from my girl, shondell, who has been such a tremendous force of positivity and inspiration for me during these tough times. i shared with her what i had been going through during the week, and she told me a story about a struggle she had, and a lesson she learned in letting go and letting God. she helped me to realize that we, as individuals, really have everything we need in life to be well and succeed; we just need to relax, trust in God, and know–truly know– that in the end, everything will be okay. hearing her testimony really brightened my spirits.
later that same day, shondell texted me telling me to “tune into oprah, RIGHT NOW!” the show was a re-run of a best life week episode on “spirituality 101.” i’d seen the episode before, but the refresher couldn’t have come at a more perfect time. in it, oprah made mention of a gratitude journal that she keeps and writes in on almost a daily basis. as soon as i heard that, my mind started to race and i thought of journaling what i’m grateful for… keeping the good things that are working in my life fresh and present in my thinking. since seeing that episode, i’ve started to write down 5 things from each day that i’m grateful for, as well as writing prayer notes to God. since starting this new thing, i feel so alive and in such great spirits, i can barely contain myself!
in addition to all of that, randomly, on thursday, i picked up my book manuscript and started re-writing “evolution of a man: a journal of self-discovery.” the stuff that was coming out of me was so amazing that i almost couldn’t stop writing. i’ve been locked in ever since! i feel so on fire right now! like i have purpose again. it’s so awesome how quickly things can go from darkness to light. this book is seriously going to be a brilliant and amazing piece of work. i can’t wait for you all to read it! the goal is to have it all re-written by the end of the month… middle of july at the latest, and then re-start the publishing process shortly thereafter.
i feel like my life is back on track right now, and i couldn’t be more excited! thank God for friends like shondell, and for what being grateful and trusting in Him can bring about in our own lives. i’m so freakin’ stoked right now! lol let’s go, people! upward and onward! 
will on November 18th, 2008
part of the opening credits for bravo tv’s “the real housewives of atlanta” show one of the wives, deshawn asserting, “i always knew i was destined for greatness.” waiting for the much talked about reunion show, i’m watching the atlanta housewives marathon, and every time i hear her utter those words, i say to myself, “ME TOO!”
i’ve always felt this way- ever since i was a little kid. i just believe that i have something really incredible and astounding inside me to share with the world; and that i was born to do great and amazing things. some people wake up in the morning and roll into their day content with their normalcy. i am not one of those people! i wake up every morning wanting to be more than i was the day before. even further, i await the day when i can share my joy, my personality and my talent with the world at large.
at this point in my life, i’m ready to make some moves and get this show on the road. since being let go from google, i’ve thrown myself into building a little business- a media company- of my own. things are quite difficult, of course, because i’m creating it all from scratch, with no money, and with only my instincts to guide me. there have been many other people, all over the world, who have created empires from coins and ideas, and i fully plan on adding myself to that list. my premier product is a strong, thought-provoking and groundbreaking piece of work that i believe many will connect with and be inspired by. that’s all i need for now. my goal is to use the success of the book (and it will be a #1 best-seller), to create a name for myself in media and entertainment; and then keep on building from there.
now, i’m not gonna sit here and pretend that i’m not scared. i’m scared shitless! i don’t know much about the business of media; i don’t know many people in the industry; and, on a more personal level, i struggle with self-confidence and not knowing how to properly network. all of that becomes so overwhelming at times that i end up not getting anything done and never leave my apartment. “can i really do this,” i ask to myself? “am i really cut out to be a huge media personality?” i ask these questions and more on almost a daily basis, and, every time, all answers point to “yes.” i just need to believe in myself and my abilities, and carry that spirit around with me everywhere i go.
i know i am destined for greatness; and as b. scott says, “my steps are ordered by God,” so i’m not worried. not worried at all! i have faith in Him and in myself; and with a little effort and a lot of hard work, i will, in a few years’ time, be a force to be reckoned with in media and entertainment. let’s go!
will on November 1st, 2008
here we go! i just got back from the post office (always an interesting experience) where i mailed the first batch of query letters and self-addressed stamped envelopes to publishers & literary agencies across the country. aside from writing the book itself, this is my first effort to put my name out there, and find some backing for Evolution Of A Man!
so, send all your good energy and best wishes this way. somebody’s gonna publish this book… and it’s gonna be HUGE!
will on September 29th, 2008
ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, i give you:
Evolution Of A Man: A Journal Of Self-Discovery
At 24, Will McNair was lost. Although he had a successful year in New York City under his belt after moving from California, as well as a very promising job at Google, he felt inadequate and unaccomplished. Having grown up in South Central Los Angeles the sheltered son of a preacher man and woman, he hid his sexuality and identity from the world out of fear and insecurity. But on January 8, 2004- just a few months short of his 25th birthday- Will set off on a search for himself.
In Evolution Of A Man, written as his personal journal from 2004 – 2008, Will openly and candidly explores who he is as a person of greatness, while struggling to let go of the past and move into the future. From addressing insecurities and breaking away from the strict ideals of his parents; to losing his virginity and finding peace with his sexuality, Evolution Of A Man paints an intimate picture of what it means to face yourself, challenge your fears, and realize your own true potential.
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i cannot tell you how excited i am about this project. it’s been a long and hard journey, but the end result was well worth it! now that the book is done, i’m looking for publishing and marketing help. so send me those contacts, people lol. it’s time to get this thing off the ground!
